Monkey Bars

I’m dragging my feet.

I have that feeling of knowing what I need to do and losing my ability to brush it off or push it away any longer. The thing is I’m so well aware that what I deeply desire is right on the other side of this doorway I find myself at. The work that I’ve been doing over the past three years to excavate and develop myself has led to this moment of significant healing, expansion of psychic abilities, the closet door opening, and what feels like a cliff. All primed for the proverbial leap of faith.

My Inner Child is on the scene offering an analogy of playing on the monkey bars on my grammar school playground. It has me picturing the moment of having to let go of one of the bars to swing to the next to get to the other side. Confidence and faith greatly increase the probability of success. The thing is, I sucked at the monkey bars and can’t recall one successful completion during my entire grade school career. My mind’s eye pictures a big yellow, flashing sign, Caution! Leap Ahead.

It’s easy to see why people stay small and safe. It’s so much easier to stay wrapped up in a blanket, cozy against discomfort, potential failure, and ridicule. The question of who cares about what I’m trying to share anyway, can drum upon your head like incessant raindrops. But I’ve come to believe that dreams and ideas wouldn’t be in our head and heart if they didn’t have merit or weren’t possible to achieve. There’s a reason they keep drumming inside us too.

So, if for no other reason than to avoid the death bed what-if regrets, I’m throwing open the closet door and stepping out onto the edge of the cliff to share what I can to hopefully help and heal other women who find themselves in need of a running buddy. Or a hand to hold on this path that came with no instructions. One thing I know for sure is there is strength in numbers. Especially in a space where authenticity, truth, worth, and healing are valued and where many of us find ourselves thirsty, parched, or depleted. Let our goal be that when one of us rises we all rise. And when we do, let the dance party begin.